Everyday, college becomes closer! I have started making lists of things to take with me: clothes, books, shoes, pictures, knick-knacks. How do you choose a few, special things to take to a small, shared dorm room from a room that is full 18 years of special things? It is the strangest thing, but one that is inevitable.
I find it funny that life is one big circle. When I was younger, maybe 10 or 11, I had a loft bed in my room. My dad built it and painted it white and I loved it. I had curtains hanging off of it so the chair and desk under the bed seemed totally separate from the outside world. Then, I grew up and got bigger and climbing up the ladder to the bed seemed like too much work. But, behold, here I am going to college and my dad just finished building me a loft bed! And I am excited about it! I am excited about putting my books on the shelf he added to the head of the bed and to set up my papasan chair and bookcase under it. It seems ironic that I will be sleeping in the same style of bed at age 18 as I was when I was 11. The things that I once thought I had outgrown forever and re-entering my life. Odd!
I also find myself laughing at my thinking lately. Though I know I am only going to be a freshmand and have plently of time to consider my future and figure out what to do with my life, I am anxious to know. I want to know NOW what I should be studying and concentrating on. When we are younger, we are told that we can do anything that we want to do. That thought excites us and we spend many afternoons pretending to be teachers, doctors, mothers, or astronauts. Anything! And now, I feel like, once again, I have so many options. This new chapter brings tons of opportunities. I can study whatever I want; I can choose to be whatever I want. But... what I want is for someone to tell me what to do! I am overwhelmed by all the possibilities. I fear that I may choose the wrong path and end up in the wrong place. What if I change my mind? What if I am not happy with my choice in future years?
What if?
Matthew 6:34
Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Do not worry.
